You know what I hate more than anything in this world?
No matter what I do..my past never goes away.
I am never going to be good enough
My life has always been a rollercoaster. Growing up all I ever wanted to be was a cheerleader. Tan, long legs, pretty hair, white smile, with high jumps and good tumbling. That was hard to do since I have red hair, pale skin, short legs, and yellow teeth. Cheerleaders were the coolest girls at the private school I went to for nine years. My parents struggled extremely to send me to a private school. All my friends lived in three story houses when I live in a one story house in a cow pasture. When I was in sixth grade I worked very hard and tried out for the middle school cheerleading team. Suprisingly I made the team. I cheered for football and basketball my seventh grade year. My eight grade year I was voted captain for basketball and football cheerleading. I also was nominated and made NCA all american cheerleader for my leadership skills. Then my life took a bad turn.
The economy got worse. So I decided I should help my parents out and go to public school. It was the complete opposite of my small, strict, loving private school. I only knew four people in the whole school. I didnt have any classes with any of them. Freshman year was awful. I tried out for jv football cheerleading and made the team. The only girls who were truely nice to me were my friends what were black. Public school was very cliqued. I didnt fit in with the blonde girls. They all live in a fancy subdivision, drive nice cars, and always made sure there clothes, makeup and hair matched. Most of the girls didnt like me to begin with because i was “fresh meat” for all the guys at the school.
Then I met Jake.
E v e r y t h i n g .
We met saturday november 7th 2009. It was literally love at first sight. It was your perfect southern romance. almost like it was written by nicholas sparks. he was a junior, i was a freshman. he knew everyone at school. and he had a huge red dodge truck. He was funny, a good singer, a crazy driver, always fun to be around. We were crazy about each other. Until about 4 months into our relationship.